My mind is now with this song... masa dah bangun ke masa nak tidur, tengah gosok gigi muka kaki ketiak jari-jemari waima masa study or dalam kelas lagu ni berlegar-legar dalam minda Dalin...

ugghh... diorang letak minyak senyonyong ke apa ni.. very addictive... berhantu betul...

Original song is actually Despascito from Luis Fonsi which is in latin version, pastu Justin Bibir Bieber ada buat version diorang pulak in English feat Daddy Yankee.. lepas tu datang anak Melayu Singapore jadikan Malay Version dengan tajuk Incognito.. cerita pasal perempuan tinggalkan sang lelaki, tapi si lelaki tak kisah pun sebab ramai yang menunggu.. haha.. Then ada female malay version pulak konon lawan balik lagu ni dengan sang perempuan memberikan alasan tinggalkan lelaki tu sebab tak solat 5 waktu and so on as if  "menghalalkan" untuk perempuan tu curang.. hahaha.. gitu la kisahnya.. tapi ianya hanya lagu je.. Don't take it serious ye.. Nak dengar yang female version?? Aaahh korang cari sendiri.. haha.. personally I love this version better dari yang female tu.. this is more catchy and meaningful...

Sebenarnya geng lelaki dalam lagu ni dengan geng perempuan tu geng diorg juga...

The talent behind this song is from MrGraphsman™ or boleh check FB page diorg MrGraphsman

Tahu tak on this day, view di YouTube nak dekat 1M views with 995,783 views... Sikit je lagi,,

...and the people behind it...?

Dzar Ismail Penyanyi kedua/Rapper

Muhammad Nizam Sa'im

Muhamad Noh Bin Sapari

Jufri Salim

Aidil Akmal Penyanyi yang suara lunak tu..

Imm Streamways

Hopefully you guys will fall in love with this song.. because I know I do... :)

Hi Blog
I missed you...

The blog period is already over. 
No more blog walking..
No more famous bloggers to follow..
Most of them even deleted their blogs..
Or just let it be with no updates, untouched..

Hence I haven't put any "Assalamualaikum my sugar plump readers"
as I know there will be no more readers left..

so why updating?
Just because..

Sometimes this blog of mine is like a quite place for me to find peace..
To let out those monsterious thoughts..
or any kind of rubbish to not to throw at FB-but-just-kinda-let-it-all-out

Any new update about me?
Not much.. But here's a photo of me.. lol..

Oh I'm nearing my final exams now..
ughh.. tears and more tears..
but its okay..
Allah ada..

What's my goal after this degree....?

Hmm.. good question..
But me, myself is still uncertain about it..
maybe into health sciences professional courses?
Maybe further to postgrad?
or.. umm.. not sure...
Im not gonna think about this yet..
Don't cross the bridge until you come to it...

tu je kot my bebelan for now...
nothing much..
but I'm certainly happy with my life.. 
haha.. sape kata being single is painful...?
Its actually a fun life without having to have more and more commitment!
*yeay me*

Okay.. Daaa..
believed by American Indians to give its owner good dreams.

I think I might need it...

Coz I want to catch my dreams..

I want to migrate..

I want to have a good job, and finally settle down..

Where there will be just me and my small little family..

I want to chill with my S.O drinking hot drinks..

Either tea, choc or coffee..

with homemade cakes or cookies..

while watching our kids playing at the backyard..

Oh I haven't bake anything since I'm back in NZ.. :(

I want my kids to love animals..

So we might adopt cats..

I want to lead a happy lifestyle, and follow my S.O to gym

or we can stroll down the park together with our kids..

I want our kids to cry, when their Dada needs to go somewhere,

and hug him tight, when their Dada is safely back home..

I want to have a decent dinner, and full up my S.O and the kids with my homemade food..

The food that I've been learning to make since ages..

Just for this..

But... I wonder..

Is that possible?

I can't even see the future..

I can't even see the hints..

or even one bit of it..


Maybe the life that I dream of..

Is not meant for me..?

Its hard you know..

To find someone to love..

and to be loved..

to start again, the new journey of relationship..

To give your heart, and to take his heart..

To make him see your bad, and for you to accepts his..

To slowly give your trust, and also takes his..

To put your ego away, and second yourself..

So your small little family will always be first..


Do you know what is the hardest part?

To love someone without them knowing..

To hold them in your heart since ages ago..

To see them in relationship, while your heart ached..

To see them in pain from heartbroken, but you can't be there..

and the worst is, to see them with another person..

Your heart sank..

You cursed them in silent..


You can't do anything..

Coz you never talk.. You never text..

You never had the chance to tell them..

Coz you're so afraid, that the dream you held,

will be crushed in a blink of an eye..

It's too painful..

That when you should pray for yourself, family and friends,

instead you begged to God to wipe out the feeling..

you cried to God so that He can make you better..

you plead to God so you could forget them..

Because it is too painful,

you blocked them everywhere..

in media socials..

in public..

you avoided them..

but it doesn't even matter,

coz they never knew you existed..

so in the end, you're the one that kept on looking for them...

and till now..

you still beg to God...

to replace them with someone better..

you ask from God..

to help you move on..

Instead, your love grew stronger..

and the pain gets more intense..

till its hard to breath..

and till forever, you just remained as nobody to their eyes...

Assalamualaikum my sugar plump readers (do i still have one?)

This is my first ever post in 2017.
yea i know its too late. im so lame

Still, better than nothing kan? haha..

any new update about me?

Nov 2016
Balik Malaysia for semester break
Putus cinta :'(
Being single again *yeay* :D

Feb 2017
 my beloved cat Ling died.. :'(
this one i cannot tahan, even thinking of her makes me wanna cry..
I really miss her.. I miss her so much..
I miss her day and night..
Every night i would always look back through the pictures and videos of her..
gemok tembam gebus mulus notty mcm dalin..
(yes, hence the name Ling! lol)
Sometimes I would be pissed off.. sebab benda boleh elakkk..!
She hasnt been vaccinated, so she had this evil virus..
and her body cannot tahan anymore with the infection..
both of Liing and Caramel (my other notty cat) got infected with the nasty virus..
the vet suspect they got it from outdoor cats..
mmg byk kucing jantans nak ngorat diorg.. comey kan.. hukhuk..
but only Caramel fights the infection..
and sometimes i would feel really pissed off with Ling because she wont even try to fight it..
but.. maybe the virul is so kuattt she cant even fight it.. :'(

I missed having to wake up with these two furballs at the end of my bed..

Ling left, Caramel right

So can you guys imagine how I sleep on my own bed?
yes, i squish myself into a ball just to avoid kicking them! hahaha..

then a week after my precious Ling died, I have to go back to New Zealand..
Now I'm here in Dunedin..
phew my days are quite hectic..
i have another 2 years and I'm planning to find a job here...
migrate here for good..

what about my family?
ala.. diorg can visit me anytime what..
or I'll go back to Malaysia.. hihihi..

for sure one thing is, Im gonna adopt cats once i'll have a job!
i need to pour my love somewhere kan? hahaha...

tu je la kot about my life..
boring kan? 
sbb tu la lama tak update!

okaayy bye!