Assalamualaikum blog.. tudiaaa.. lama tak pernah update apa-apa.. This blog has always been in my mind.. Because there is nothing much to update.. But I decided to update this today.. This is going to be a place where hopefully one day Baby M can read this post (InsyaAllah future posts about you) Thanks to your Mama for allowing you to call me Mommy <3 The moment your ayah and mama told us that you're in your Mama's tummy, Mommy was super excited. I did not show my excitement that much as before you, your Mama had a miscarriage so we were trying to stay low yet praying day and night that you'll be full term and healthy.. Your mommy and Mak have been chatting to each other about how we are so excited waiting for your arrival. I could not believe even though you're not from me, yet my love for you grows every day.. It is so amazing how we can love someone that we haven't met yet isnt it? Updates from your Ayah about you always excite me and made my day Mommy an
I said 'I love you' the last. You came to my life while I was fragile, and yet independent. I still am. I mean the last part - independent. I was fragile because my last relationship before you four years ago scarred me. It scarred me to be in a relationship because I was too tired to start again. To know someone new. To know the bad and good in you. To let them know the good and bad in me too. But you told me, "Oh give yourself a chance". "I won't be like your ex and hurt you". "It's not fair to yourself because of someone else". After thorough thoughts, so I give in. But remember I forgot how to love. I forgot how to date. Because of the scar I once had. And I've been questioning you and myself, Why a guy like you be interested in me? The question I pour out to you is because deep down inside I do love you and I'm scared of losing you and you knew it too. The first date we had was amazing. No fancy restaur